**FRAGILE**

There are times when I feel so incredibly fragile as a writer and as a person.

Sometimes it has to do with what’s going on in my family life – like my mother in law spending a month at my house. And while I love having people come visit, I’m also very private, and sharing my space for that long starts to chip away at my sanity.

Sometimes it has to do with what’s going on my writing life – My most personal book, and my fav-ever character, was just released into the world. And there were about four glitches with that release, the result of which was the hardback coming out the beginning of August, and the ebook releasing a couple weeks ago.

Nobody is buying this book, and I can’t bring myself to jump up and down about it at the moment.

When I’m fragile, everyone’s ideas are more clever, shinier, brighter, and better than my ideas.

When I’m fragile, I totally stay off GR and Amazon, and I sort of cocoon up. I second-guess writing decisions, editing decisions, author photo decisions, business card decisions, what to eat for breakfast decisions, lol.

This generally leads to some kind of paralytic freak out, or me focusing my energy on things that I do NOT have time for but since they’re not necessary, they’re much less scary to work on…

And Mike very nicely pointed out that I have a million things happening in a million different directions. Of COURSE I’m feeling fragile right now.

I think sometimes the best we can do is just try to keep breathing and moving forward until we find a buoy to latch on to.

Right now that buoy is the edits for my next book with Albert Whitman. Hopefully after that, my shiny new idea will buoy me for a while…

Until then I shall be counting the days until the fabulous CASSIE MAE comes to eat waffles and drink hot chocolate with me, and come up with some kind of clever way to make people want to read my new book πŸ˜‰

If you wanna jump in and comment today, I’d LOVE links to some fun things y’all have found around the interwebs – or, yanno, SHARE A HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

~ Jo

10 thoughts on “**FRAGILE**

  1. “When I’m fragile, everyone’s ideas are more clever, shinier, brighter, and better than my ideas.

    When I’m fragile, I totally stay off GR and Amazon, and I sort of cocoon up. I second-guess writing decisions, editing decisions, author photo decisions, business card decisions, what to eat for breakfast decisions, lol.”

    This is so, so sooooo me! I totally get it. I feel like this often.

  2. Well said. And so very true. One of my favorite quotes when I’m down is one by Orson F. Whitney (which I found when I didn’t know anything about writing or the Whitney Awards).

    β€œNo pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God.”

    Cassie Mae is the perfect person to make you smile. LOVE her!

  3. I think everyone experiences this at times to some degree. (If there really are people that are super confident and self-assured 24/7 I’d sure love to meet one and learn the secret.) And putting your work out there for public consumption is more than most people do so you have that extra dose of uncertainty. I struggle with feeling fragile (such a perfect way to describe it) and often have to resort to the “fake it until you make it” strategy. Sometimes it works, sometimes not so much.

    I bought the hardcover of Stronger Than You Know last month but have not read it yet. It’s high on my TBR, though. I have zero doubt that I’m going to love it. I base that on my experience with The Summer I Found You. I’ve probably bored you senseless gushing about my love for Kate and Aidan and their story (on GoodReads, on Facebook, on your Twitter page… LOL). Either you took my gushing as it was meant (a reader who was truly moved by the characters you created) or you decided I was a creepy creeper and took out a restraining order. πŸ˜‰ But I can’t wait to start Stronger Than You Know and get to know Joy.

    1. NOT A CREEPY STALKER!!!!!!!!! lol.

      And for sure YES on the fake it til you make it – that, along w/ a nice hot chocolate and probably QDoba, are going to get me through my day πŸ˜‰

      On Mon, Oct 27, 2014 at 10:16 AM, author Jolene Perry wrote:

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  4. I can totally relate to you in everyway. Some ways that always bring me up are when I just take some time to listen to my music. Music that I like and makes me happy. Another way I like to brighten my day is by reading through my quote journal. Basically what it is a journal that I found and in it I write down quotes that have meaning to me. One of my favorite ones are “Don’t tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon.” I love that one, and my newest one (which I have as my laptop background screen) “Happiness is like perfume, you can’t spray it on others without getting a little onto yourself.” Finally, I recently read a book (and gave a book talk on it in front of my English class) and said that β€œAnd it’s true what I read about joy. It’s the kind of happiness that not only fills you up but spills over. Really, all you have to to is look for it, and then have the strength to let it in. And believe it or not, that’s the hardest part.” (244) Joy taught me that important lesson. So I’m asking you Mrs. Perry, try to let it in, even though that is going to be the hardest part.
    P.S.—I thank you so very, very much for writing Stronger Than You Know. I have MAD (major anxiety disorder), OCD, Panic Attacks. I even had to go to Rodgers Memorial Hospital so I could learn how to handle all of them better. I thank you for writing Stronger Than You Know, because even though Joy is fictional, she was so real to me. I could relate to her every part of the gosh dang anxiety way. lol. Oh and I’m 14 turning 15 in February too. There’s another connection.
    Thanks again, Hoped I helped.
    One of your Fans,
    Abbie

    1. Abbie –

      You are amazing. I seriously teared up at this. COMPLETELY.

      I cannot thank you enough for stopping by my site – especially today.

      Jolene

      On Mon, Oct 27, 2014 at 3:18 PM, author Jolene Perry wrote:

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  5. Boy, Abbie made me tear up a little too. That is so totally what writing is about. Touching people like that. And so many of your books do that. Whether they sell a ton of copies or not, they touch people’s lives.

    And for the people who haven’t bought Stronger than You Know, they don’t know what they’re missing.

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